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SWTOR Fanfic - Adiira and Quinn [Mar. 16th, 2012|06:48 am]
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No spoilers.  A private scene.


The trap they’d stumbled into was a bad one, Force wielders disguised as common troops come to parley.  The immediate threat was neutralized, the assassins lying dead in the center of the ballroom.  Unfortunately, the baron they’d meant to protect lay there too.  That left regular troops of both factions to evade in their escape; Quinn and Adiira had taken to an alcove, curtained and private, for a few minutes of highly dubious safety.  He bandaged her side where repeated blows had riven the armor.

Adiira gritted her teeth as he made sure the deep burn was clean.  “Well, Quinn, we certainly danced with the lightning today,” she said wryly. 

His aura abruptly flared against Adiira’s senses, bleeding fear and anger and sorrow.  

“Captain!  Quinn, what is it?” she demanded sharply.  She scanned the wider room and the alcove in which they hid, but there were no new attackers, nothing to explain the surge of pain she felt from him.

He stared down at the char and blood on his hands.  “How can you stand it?  Do you have no feelings at all?” He started to shake.  “This is why it is forbidden to military personnel to fraternize.  I nearly lost you.  YOU NEARLY DIED!  And I couldn’t save you.”  His voice, low and harsh, fell to the barest whisper.

Her quick anger at his first words died to ashes at the last.  “Quinn… Malavai,” she said gently.  His head came up at the use of his first name.  Now that she had his attention, how to phrase what she knew in her bones? 

“I do feel it.  When we are in a firefight, and I can see that you are outmatched and failing... the anguish is exquisite.  And I take it and use it.  I turn it outward against our foes.  Because all I can do to save you, as you are dying, is to make them die faster.”  She shook her head ruefully.  “And the terrible thing is that it works, Malavai.  I love you.  And that love and fear makes me stronger than I’d ever dreamed of being.”

“You are strong enough to embrace all the passions of what we are becoming and use them as I do, I know it.  Or you are strong enough to turn away from them for your own sake, and I wouldn’t stop you.  I’d survive that, if it would be better for you.”  She fell silent and waited for him, closing her eyes like a child in hiding, not wanting to see it happen if he shut himself off from her.  Tears escaped one by one, running slowly down her cheeks, and she didn’t try to stop them.

It wasn’t long at all before his gentle hand was touching her face, wiping them away.  “No,” he said, “I will not cut myself away from my own heart.  You are mine and I am yours, forever, Adiira, no matter what befalls us.”



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[User Picture]From: lanna_kitty
2012-03-16 07:04 pm (UTC)
Oh, them! They're sort of exquisitely tragic in a way. I liked this :D

You were worried about purple and I don't really see any. They're both aching for the other.

(Also, yes, it is quite easy to read stuff and have no issue with Adiira's crew not being Aylaa's)

heee!

more?
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[User Picture]From: catlinye_maker
2012-03-16 07:20 pm (UTC)
Of course more, pages of more. Plenty of happier more too, thank goodness.

She's far too ready to sacrifice herself for him; she pretty much expects he'll break it off rather than living with the pain. Which makes you wonder what her previous boyfriends were like.

I'm really glad you like it! Thank you!!
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[User Picture]From: lanna_kitty
2012-03-16 08:08 pm (UTC)
She's quite passionately noble. He's clearly struggling to rectify what he wants and what he already knows. It's lovely!

So how close am I? After this, do they sort of pick themselves up, bust their way out, head back to the ship, and then quietly breakdown/rip one another's clothing off/ let the masks shatter a bit?


When is this set in their timeline?
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[User Picture]From: catlinye_maker
2012-03-16 08:17 pm (UTC)
Post first night, so they're involved but first time she's called him by his first name (why it gets his attention so fast), first time she's said "I love you." (Though she's been thinking it for weeks.)

So how close am I? After this, do they sort of pick themselves up, bust their way out, head back to the ship, and then quietly breakdown/rip one another's clothing off/ let the masks shatter a bit?

Yes, this. <3 Thank you so much for saying that, I tend to see them in snippets and not the continuation so much. It's definitely what happens, though. Shall I see if I can write that?

(I was thinking you meant more snippets, above.) I have a piece half done called First Name Basis, but frankly that would be better as a continuation of this rather than the lighthearted fluff it is now.

Course that means you might get a couple of pages of Corso and his wayward smuggler in between; I want to post these suckers in order and the next stop was going to be the fluff piece and then the wedding piece.

Edited at 2012-03-16 08:27 pm (UTC)
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[User Picture]From: lanna_kitty
2012-03-16 08:38 pm (UTC)
first time she's said "I love you." (Though she's been thinking it for weeks.)

Ahhhh that's lovely!

Shall I see if I can write that?

Yes please!!!!

heh, I'm easy! ;) More snippets. More fic. It's all good! Whatever you wish to share I'd love to see :D I'm really finding the differences in the crews to be both fascinating and delightful ^_^

I tend to write more in completed pieces if only because if I post something WIP and then it changes, I hate retconning myself and confusing people.

The dislike of retconning comes from a particularly poor GM on my first RP, who took the RP we did - already written in prose - and unified it into a story. Good idea, except he sucked as a writer, and wanted us to play out his plotline rather than let it evolve, and he had myself and a few other players re-re-re-re-re-do key scenes to his liking.

Example of his horrid writing:
Pallid Stormtrooper armor. I wish I could make this stuff up. We told him that wasn't a good word, just use white and he replied that it was a valid synonym, because Word's built in thesaurus told him it was.
Cue all the facepalming.
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[User Picture]From: catlinye_maker
2012-03-16 09:16 pm (UTC)
I tend to write more in completed pieces if only because if I post something WIP and then it changes, I hate retconning myself and confusing people.

Well, you know, I originally set out to write one page on how an upright military officer could fall for a socially awkward Sith lord (In the Tank) since I knew something had to change his mind for the romance to work. So the ever-expanding fic file is, umm.. rather unexpected.

...he had myself and a few other players re-re-re-re-re-do key scenes to his liking.

Oh, ugh, bad GM's. Bleah! You can do that with your writing partner, never with your players! J and I have done that, but we're working it out then, not playing it!

We had one (bad GM) in a convention Supers game... my winged character was claustrophobic and refused to enter the narrow dark tunnel into the pyramid. A wind came up and blew her in there. That was the game after which J and I made up supers characters on the way home, and we ran a series of games for a few years on the con circuit, since dammit _I_ could do better than that.

Did you ever play WoW? I did, and I'm afraid "pallid stormtrooper armor" shoves me right into the Undercity and all I can think of is "flesh armor" complete with big black stitches.

I use thesauri a lot because there's a tendency having used a word once it crops up every other sentence for a whole page. Of course if it's the right word then tough, the rest of the page gets rewritten.

Thanks for chatting, btw, this is my reward between loads of laundry. Gotta go fold, in fact.
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[User Picture]From: lanna_kitty
2012-03-16 09:54 pm (UTC)
Thanks for chatting, btw, this is my reward between loads of laundry. Gotta go fold, in fact.

heh np. This gives me something to do while I wait for maps to load. it is unfortunately I thing I am doing a lot of today. Ugh. Restart. Wait for files to load. Change one thing. Shut it all down and check in the files. Repeat. The joys of working in video games, I tell ya. It's like making sausage. Delicious end product but you don't want to see how messy it is to make. ;) We've been going fulltlt for awhile now and today is the playtest (so everything that could be done has been done and all that's left is the crying) so everyone's kinda burned out and sort of falling asleep at their desks.

(er. I told you I'm a designer, right?)

Yes I played wow >:D For the Horde! played a druid then fell in love with the Deathknights. What can I say, I like playing hybrid classes with a lot of buttons to push ;) I got to level 70 on my nelf druid then was clean and sober for a year before I joined my current company. Then I came back with Wrath a few months after it had launched, and caught up to them by making a Tauren DK and moving her from my old server to theirs, and leveling up to Raid specs. We did a casual-core raiding group every Sunday for a while before we hit a wall. We called it the Laundry Raid, because that was usually what everyone was doing in the background.

ahaha now I can't unsee that visual image. Voodoo stormtroopers!

Yeah, we tried to explain that "pallid does not mean what you think it means" but he didn't listen. He finally flounced off in a huff and effectively handed over management to myself and two others and then dropped us entirely and we're better for it :P we = my guild of the last 11 years. That game is how we all met :D

Well, you know, I originally set out to write one page on how an upright military officer could fall for a socially awkward Sith lord (In the Tank) since I knew something had to change his mind for the romance to work. So the ever-expanding fic file is, umm.. rather unexpected.

I really liked that piece! It was very nice and showed a lot of his character and was generally sort of quietly sweet in a way. not sure if sweet is the right word...soft? gentle? the unexpected revelation. it's friday and I am burned out ;)

hah also I know about the unexpected expanding files. I started the wedding one and the "family reunion" one just to get it out 0f my head. there's about 15k words between them.

If you hadn't noticed by now, I tend to write larger works. I turned in a "short story" for an 8th grade social geography lesson on the colonies and my teacher sort of looked at it, looked at me and went "wow! this reads like a novel! Cool!". I haven't really changed in preferred format since then ;)
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[User Picture]From: catlinye_maker
2012-03-16 11:20 pm (UTC)
(er. I told you I'm a designer, right?)

No, but cool! And good luck with the launch!

Yes I played wow >:D For the Horde! played a druid then fell in love with the Deathknights. What can I say, I like playing hybrid classes with a lot of buttons to push ;) I got to level 70 on my nelf druid then was clean and sober for a year before I joined my current company.

We played hordeside too, moved there with our guild from EQ and never did do much raiding there. I liked my troll hunter but hated the preprogrammed nature of the raid encounters.

Everquest was our crack game. J ran an RP guild raiding alliance that got to the elemental planes (Gathering of Banners on Morrell Thule) and we were online in game every moment we weren’t actually at work or asleep. We had a phone tree setup for one of the rare rotation mobs for the cleric epic and I remember tumbling downstairs at 2 am, t-shirt inside out, and getting on with 40 other people we’d woken up to go kill the thing. When we burned out (quel surprise) I swore I’d never go that deep into another game again.

SWTOR is as close as I’ve been to EQ in years. I love the game and doing the fic makes it that much better.

ahaha now I can't unsee that visual image. Voodoo stormtroopers!

My work here is done. *evil grin*

I really liked that piece! It was very nice and showed a lot of his character and was generally sort of quietly sweet in a way. not sure if sweet is the right word...soft? gentle? the unexpected revelation. it's friday and I am burned out ;)

Thanks! I had trouble with the romance at first, because I just didn’t see how we got from employer/employee to lovers, given the personalities involved. And then I thought, well, if he can see her as vulnerable and human, and then can realize that he really does make a difference to her success/survival, then they could be on a more equal footing. And if it’s true that he’s her equal, then she could be a love interest. And that’s a starting point.
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[User Picture]From: lanna_kitty
2012-03-16 11:55 pm (UTC)
my game's launched, this is an update :)

ahaha oh evercrack. I avoided that. fell into city Of heroes harcore, got clean of that but it wasnt the hardcore levels I know the EQ players went into ;)

Thanks! I had trouble with the romance at first, because I just didn’t see how we got from employer/employee to lovers, given the personalities involved. And then I thought, well, if he can see her as vulnerable and human, and then can realize that he really does make a difference to her success/survival, then they could be on a more equal footing. And if it’s true that he’s her equal, then she could be a love interest. And that’s a starting point.

maaaany times Ive done this with writing fics, esp. if it isn't the accepted Pairing-of-the-month in various fandoms. I start with the "let me show them going through the process to get to the romance/smut". Ie let me build my case ;)
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[User Picture]From: catlinye_maker
2012-03-17 02:22 pm (UTC)
We played CoH, liked it ok (LOVED the character design feature). I got tired of the world models, though, same old gray offices and buildings.
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